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the plus and the delta [09 May 2008|05:15pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

+NYC (and PA but I'm not sure if I am really all that excited about that portion of the trip)
+home purchase consultations
+growing out my hair
+sideshow is getting huge


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Life is good [16 Dec 2007|09:01pm]
[ mood | nerdy ]

Our holiday party /Cucuy's birthday party was great! The mistletoe didn't really work as planned but I think the 8 liters of sangria and bottle of tequila did. Cucuy got this really cute flannel jacket that it seems she really likes.
Right now it's just me and cucuy for a few days. Sonia went back home and I already miss her. I gave her all her Christmas gifts before she left! She gave me a bike! I rode it for the first time today, around Chrissy Fields. I was damn cold but really happy. I'm taking my Mom to the Nutcracker this week.
I got a sweet raise at work and a promotion. Less than a month until the first phase of the madness is over. Then what will be a top PTSD treatment center will open. Then the madness of phase two will begin. Well worth it and I can't wait to see all that it becomes.
I'm looking forward to the new year. 2007 has been pretty good and I can't wait until all of the changes in 2008.
It feels so good knowing that I am in such a different place than I was a couple of years ago. I feel so much stronger loving what I have, knowing what I want, and knowing what I don't want.

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its been a while [30 May 2007|06:52pm]
[ mood | happy ]

The East Coast was great. In New York, I had the most amazing veggie chicken ever, went to museums, and saw 2 ducks getting it on in a pond.
Then I went to DC for a day. DC was surprisingly wonderful. We stayed at the Helix Hotel (I must say, Kimpton Hotels are great places to stay) right in the middle of the queers. I didn't get out much because I had meetings for work - then we met K. and headed to Baltimore.
Baltimore consisted of a 3 day conference on collective leadership. Folks from around the country, working on various social issues met for what turned into an "unconference." We all went to dinner at a restaurant owned by the brother of the President of Afghanistan. Amazing. Wine all night. The conference was inspiring as I heard so many stories of working for social justice and living social justice.
Then I headed back to DC for a meeting and to finish up my trip. I got a little bit of site seeing in, but not much, I definitely would like to go back to DC.
We left on a Sunday, but really that turned into Monday and took an extra day off. When we flew into Denver, the flight was overbooked so Sonia and I gave up our seats to a CAL family - the Father was a professional fundraiser heading back to do an event at the Ronald McDOnald house. We got $400 vouchers for a future flight and they hooked us up with food vouchers and a hotel voucher.
Now, I think in October, Sonia and I will be heading down to Mexico for 3 weeks, using our vouchers to get us there! hehehehe. I'm excited. I love traveling with her...
I was happy to get home to our puppy (yes, we have the cutest little silky terrier alive!) she is freaking adorable. people stop in the street to look at her. people sit down in the middle of the sidewalk to pet her.

work is getting kind of intense. one of my new projects just got in about 5.6 million and are expecting a ton more. its working with the military, but not in any pro war, pro military, pro recruitment kind of way. its to help returning veterans of the Iraq War that have PTSD, head trauma and have lost a limb. i hope the program goes well and I am excited to be apart of it.
One of my other new projects is a bigwig within the CYA and juvenile justice programs. i'm excited to see where they go with the program and the impact they have throughout CA.
Another new project is lead by someone who was a mentor to me while I was at CAPA, so I'm looking forward to working with her again.

My and Cucuy (my puppy) are heading down to SD on Friday to go to Sonia's graduation BBQ. it's our first really long road trip together.

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[08 Apr 2007|12:11pm]
Loving New York. Staying here: www.thepodhotel.com

the first two nights were rough - dirty swedes/welsh guys that snored louder than when the subway enters the station. and they slept in their boxers which made it worse.

but the days are great. ive never traveled with a partner but i'm loving being with Sonia. she makes me happy. our one year is coming up...

had a romantic walk through the brooklyn botanic garden - absolutely beautiful. the cherry blossoms weren't quite blooming but it was great.

i'm about to head out to ellis island...finish up this leg of the trip. i have a meeting at OSI wiht Friends of FOKAL. OSI is George Soros' organization. top of the line security, should be fun. then i'm off to DC!

hope all is well back home!
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East Coast [16 Mar 2007|08:51am]
[ mood | devious ]

3 more week and I head to the East Coast with my oh-so-amazing girlfriend. I am beyond excited. we need to figure out our puppy situation tho. oh what was that? puppy...Yep, I finally got the cutest puppy ever. she is way small, and gets hyper and runs down our hallway at full speed while wiggly the entire time. i need to start making some puppy play dates for her.
back to the East Coast. I'll be in NYC for like 4 days, then DC for a couple of days, then to Baltimore (it's for a leadership conference, work is sending me for the entire week) i'm back on the 15th.
we are going to do mini celebrations for her birthday and our one year "offical, cute, romantic" anniversary. the cherry blossom festival is going to be happening in New York while I'm there so we are going to check it out. If anyone has ideas on what I should do while I'm there, let me know, it's my first time!
this weekend should be fun. we are heading down to santa cruz on saturday. k. is coming over for dinner, then drinking. Sunday - romantic picnic. maybe it will involve mimosas.
PS - i have a new lesbian doctor. very exciting.

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[10 Mar 2007|11:34am]
Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is high.
You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.
And in return, you expect the same from who you love.
Any sign of straying, and you'll end things.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!


Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren't a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don't mind getting you way!


Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.


Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.
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[15 Nov 2006|11:47pm]
For the past couple of days, i had the amazing opportunity of being surrounded by strong, innovative, dedicated folx from around the country - all of which are working on social change issues in thier own community or around the world. One of the first women that I met teaches disabled individuals in third world countries how to make wheelchairs, she is now figuring out how to use that knowledge here in the states. Another guy helped create a device that would take samples from polluted air to help prove the toxic nature of many large factories that often spring up in low income, communities of color. One of the most touching stories came from a young guy, 31, who works with an organization that takes HIV positive queers rafting as therapy.
It excited me sitting among them and being apart of the reason they were all brought together for the 2 days. It has been a very inspiring couple of days, understanding my relationship to these folx, putting faces to names, comprehending better what it wil take to make social change. But most of all, I feel like i found more of my place in my new job, of a vision of where i want to go.

Tomorrow I'm going to a graduate school open house. Yes, I've put it off long enough and I feel like this is a huge step to getting to where I want to go.

Friday I'm driving Mochi down to San Diego with my amor. It will be a very quick couple of days, then I'm flying back up. I'm gonna miss her while she is away but I guess I'll take advantage of the time alone. I have two or three guests for Thanksgiving. My, how time flies. Soon enough it will be 2007. I knew this would be a year of change, and it all happened, as I hoped it would. I guess that whole "if you set your mind to it" works. Should be an interesting next year.
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through the wind and the rain... [27 Jul 2006|08:09am]
[ mood | happy ]

its been quite a while.

this summer has been amazing. so much change, so much to look forward to. i feel like i could be taken every which way and that any way will be great. i feel like myself again.

ive loved the past 6 months. i know what i want, i somewhat know how to get it. ive never felt so clear and dont feel held back at all. im moving to sf soon, with mi amor. my perspective has totally changed, i dont see being without her. ill admit, i was opposed to the idea before, said i wouldnt do it unless i was in the relationship for 5 years at minimum, but it just feels right, and ive never felt this way before. im excited for everything to come, especially if im with her...

im looking for a new job, may have one soon, studying for the gmat and going to business school so ill eventially be able to afford the house, dog, *outside shower,* benz, longhorns for my truck...dont get me wrong, im still not going corporate, but ill figure it out. im gonna take stats and calculus (yep, its been nearly 8 years since i took those classes) so ive got that down and am ready to start at whatever university that takes me. getting an mba will be so hot, maybe by then i will have hung my diploma from CAL. hahahaha.

im heading down south next week, to santa barbara, then LA, then SD! yay. picking up my chrome bag tonite, contemplating moving into the ipod world, and doing hell of more shopping in the south. celebrated my 7 year veggie anniversary with some yellow curry and homemade samosas. mmmmmmmm. took sonia to kenny chesney, even tho she hates country, but it was really sweet and i loved seeing kenney again. going to manu chau tomorrow!

hope life is good for everyone! -Alex.

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damn. [08 Apr 2006|03:36pm]

Sunday, April 9, 2006
12:00 p.m.
Our Lady of Guadalupe Church
710 S. Sultana Ave., Ontario, CA 91761

Louise Corales, whose 14 year-old son, Anthony Soltero, died on April 1 after committing suicide, will speak to the community and ask for a prayer for her son this Sunday, following the 11:00 a.m. mass at Our Lady of Guadalupe Church in Ontario, California.

Eighth grader Anthony Soltero shot himself through the head on Thursday, March 30, after the assistant principal at De Anza Middle School told him that he was going to prison for three years because of his involvement as an organizer of the March 28 school walk-outs to protest the anti-immigrant legislation in Washington. The vice principal also forbade Anthony from attending graduation activities and threatened to fine his mother for Anthonys truancy and participation in the student protests.

Anthony was learning about the importance of civic duties and rights in his eighth grade class. Ironically, he died because the vice principal at his school threatened him for speaking out and exercising those rights, Ms. Corales said today. I want to speak out to other parents, whose children are attending the continuing protests this week. We have to let the schools know that they cant punish our children for exercising their rights.

Anthonys death is likely the first fatality arising from the protests against the immigration legislation being considered in Washington, D.C. Anthony, who was a very good student at De Anza Middle School in the Ontario-Montclair School District, believed in justice and was passionate about the immigration issue. He is survived by his mother, Louise Corales, his father, a younger sister, and a baby brother.

Ms. Corales will speak to the community after mass on Sunday, April 9, 2006 at 12:00 p.m. at Our Lady of Guadalupe Church. She will ask for a prayer for Anthony, whose funeral and burial are scheduled for Monday, April 10 in Long Beach, where he was born.
(310) 410-2981
(310) 989-6815
R. Samuel Paz
Civil Rights Lawyer
Buckingham Heights
5701 W. Slauson Avenue
Suite 202
Culver City CA 90230
Telephone (310) 410-2981
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this goes out to you... [23 Feb 2006|08:15am]
[ mood | raw ]

Billy's leaving today (don't know where he's going).
Holds his head in disgrace (he can't escape the truth).
He knows the price that he's paid.
He admits that it's too late to admit that he's afraid.
Tomorrow comes. Sorrow becomes his soul mate.
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but he's always open,
To relive time in his mind.
Oh Billy.

Billy's leaving today (don't know where he's going).
He's got lines on his face (they tell the story of his pain).
He accepts it's his fate.
He admits it took too long to admit that he was wrong.
Tomorrow comes. Sorrow becomes his soul mate.
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but he's always open,
To relive time in his mind.
Oh Billy.

Once he was a lover sleeping with another.
Now he's just known as a cheat.
And he wish he'd had a mirror; looked a little clearer.
((((((((Seen into the eyes of the weak.))))))))
Tomorrow comes. *Sorrow becomes his soul mate.*
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but he's always open,
To relive time in his mind.
Oh Jakie...

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and the reality is... [29 Aug 2005|07:26pm]
keep it together one more day.
and again tomorrow.

fuck the fairy tales from the beginning of time.
they make you hope..
and dream...
of a reality that just isnt fucking real.

its not all glitter and sunshine.
i just want to hear a story..
of a person...
and a person...
that fought, that couldn't communication, that got jealous...
that confided, that ran and pulled together, that took a leap but still held onto the edge...
that didnt deal with the baggage.
that struggled and cried and held on...

and the ending?
well, there is no ending...
reality doesnt end in a certain way, no magical kiss, no slaying the dragon.
just two people, holding on in the reality of the world.
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